Saturday, December 26, 2009

Oh, Go Dig Up Some Dirt

I was looking in Google at all the talking to the dead searches. My website of Talking to Spirit was right up there on top, by the way. But, as I looked down the list and read the snippets of what people were saying, if you discounted what the skeptics were talking about, much of it wasn’t all that much different from what I have to say.

I wondered then if I’d ever have anything new to say about the dead. That’s when Seth said, “Not unless we dig somebody up.”

Have you ever heard a ladylike snort? Right. Me either.

Friday, November 20, 2009


My husband is such a dish. I've been playing with my new camera and trying to learn all about it. Canon Rebel Xsi. Anyway, I played around with taking a picture of a picture of DeeDude. This is from 35 years ago or so.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Slowing Down

So, the blogging has bogged down for a little bit. As time goes by and I learn what I’m doing at work and relax a bit I’ll have the energy to come out and blog more often. In the meantime go get your flu shot…I’m thinking of you.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Opening to Spirit

I used to be quite jealous of people who had things come to them easily. I can remember as a child my parents speaking of individuals who had photographic memories and in my child-like mind I would think if I could have a photographic memory my parents would be proud of me. It never happened, but that sense of not being the best at whatever it was sat heavily on my small shoulders.

So, as an adult I was in awe of people who channeled. I figured it was just something I could never hope to accomplish. I went along for quite a few years thinking along those lines, and, of course, it never happened for me.

It wasn’t until I happened upon a book called, “Creating Money” by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer that I was exposed to the idea that maybe I could have more control over my situation than I thought. From, “Creating Money” I was quickly led to, “Opening to Channel” by the same people and for the very first time I read that not only could I make changes in my material life, but I could make changes in my spiritual life.

There was no holding me back at that point. What I had yearned for had a chance of actually coming true. I began with the exercises in the book. And, even though I still had a shoot yourself in the foot way of looking at life I did make progress. It wasn’t as straightforward as presented in the book. My own journey involved twists and turns where I learned how to draw, learned how to write, and began a healing journey by keeping a journal, I did eventually make what I considered to be a solid connection with my guide.

Now, as I look at it all in retrospect I see that what I did to make that breakthrough to Spirit was done exactly right for me. It did seem to take a long time. It didn’t go according to the plans outlined in, “Opening to Channel”. But, it was perfectly right for me. I’m still learning about it all. I still strive to address feelings of inadequacy. But, I’m really glad to have this wonderful connection to Spirit.

And, the really good news? If I did it, you can too.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Breathing Room

I have talked occasionally on ruts and how to get out of them. Having great personal experience with ruts I figured I was probably as qualified as the next person to talk about them. Plus, this is my site, so I can talk about what I want to talk about.

But, what happens when the stuff you do doesn’t please you anymore?

Recently, my life took a rather abrupt turn and I find myself concentrating on new things at work. There is a lot to learn and a lot to remember. I’m working longer. I’m thinking about these things even when I’m not at work. It’s taking a lot of energy. I know it’s not going to be a permanent thing and I’ll probably be getting the hang of it a year or so down the line, but for now I’m preoccupied with it.

Entries to my blogs bottomed out. The newsletter I’ve been writing for 5 years crapped out. I missed the August edition and last weekend found myself almost panicky as I sat in front of my computer for the 25th time trying in vain to find something interesting to write about that I hadn’t already beat to death in previous newsletters. Nothing came to mind. It was a bad writer’s block.

Then, I talked to my friend who suggested that I stop with the newsletter for a few months and see at the end of that time if it was going to come back in the same way it had been before, or in some other form, or if it was time to retire the idea.

Such a weight lifted from my shoulders.

I can’t tell you how relieved I was. What a no brainer! Now, I can write again.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Falling Into Grace

Setting the stage now is important to the rest of the story. Lately, I’ve been stressed. I feel it has to do with my work. I have taken on more responsibility and it is hard for me. I do know with time it will all work out. I have to say it is a whole lot better now than it was for me 6 months ago, so there is improvement. But, something just isn’t the same. That something might be my overall outlook on life. It could just be this miasma that I’m looking through all the time. Just sort of blah like. Worse than blah like.

Yesterday I went to Curves. It’s only a half an hour to go around the circuit as they call it. You work 30 seconds on a machine, leap off when the lady on the tape says to change stations, jog in place for 30 seconds and then get on another machine. Sometimes there are ladies there. Mostly, I just mind my own business.

I wasn’t all that excited about being there. I know I should be going 3 times a week, but for ages now I’ve only been going once a week. Because I don’t engage in the sociable thing with the other members I instead talk to my guides. Usually, it’s just sort of quick things back and forth. The conversations don’t really count as major channeled messages, but I treasure the time and they mean a lot to me.

After all these years I really haven’t gotten the prayer thing down. I’ve got the standard Our Father and Hail Mary from my childhood and those are somewhat comforting. I try to remember to pray for all the people I know who are sick. I sometimes pray for those in need I don’t even know personally or who haven’t contacted me who have visited my sites. Sort of a group collective prayer. I don’t know that any of the prayers work. Actually, I don’t know that my prayers would have any influence at all with a person’s condition. So, I send them out with a proviso that I learned from my Reiki training and that is if the person can use the help I will offer up what I can. I know my guide has told me that all prayers are heard, but there has never been any concrete proof for me. So, it is entirely an act of faith.

Another thing is that I keep trying to be with God. I try and try and yet at work I am angry and stressed and very often find myself saying bad words much more often than I used to do. One day this last week driving to work our conversation centered in on how many times I called people assholes on the one 10 minute drive to work. I don’t feel good. I don’t feel worthy. I just feel wretched a lot of the time.

The reason I am spilling my guts here is I don’t imagine that I am very much different from a lot of people especially with the added stresses everybody has with everything else that is going on in people’s lives. Things like the economy, terrorism, global warming…I could go on, but it’s too much like watching the news.

So, yesterday I was at Curves. I don’t remember all of the conversation I had. I remember somebody in Spirit who said something about doing it for them, like I could dedicate my workout to God. I thought of people like some of my relatives who I think live their lives pretty much doing everything for God. I know there are other people around who do things that way and who appear to be at peace with it. I toyed with the idea and then because it didn’t feel right to me to do that right then I just continued on with my workout.

Then the voice in my head took a different tack with me. It was something about instead of striving, pushing, straining, yearning to be in God’s grace to just sort of embrace it. I didn’t have to prove myself. I didn’t have to be good to be there. I could just go and be in God’s grace. I didn’t have to earn it. I could just collapse into that grace. I didn’t have to pray all day and be a good girl. I could still say bad words when I really felt I needed to and be stressed at work and I could just be in God’s grace. And, for a moment or two I was. The voice in my head said it was like falling into grace, like falling in love.

And, because it’s been awhile since I’ve channeled and because I’m such a ditz at actually remembering the things they say to me I think I’ll turn it over to my guides and folk in Spirit.

Good morning. Every one of you has a view of reality. It is through this belief that you experience life. There are big rules and there are smaller rules, but all of them lie in accordance with each other to produce a smooth base upon which to live your life. A lot of these rules come from the people who first influenced you as a child. It is through those experiences that a person might as an adult come to feel themselves to be entitled and to have everything good come their way almost effortlessly. It is what they expect. There are others who might feel that everything in life is a struggle and for them the difficulties experienced in life are many.

These are simplistic views, but perhaps you get the idea. For many people their view of a higher spirit or other spirit comes from the exposure they had as children. Many times this exposure is enough for them to last through their entire lifetime. Others might turn to other teachings and find greater comfort there. Others might shun the idea of a higher self or spirit entirely. There is no right way or wrong way here. You have the gift of choice in all that you do.

The holy spirit of God, the idea of your higher self, the peace you seek has and will always be there for you. Give up your expectations. These are the rules you use to structure your lives for a brief moment. Take a deeper than usual breath. Let it out slowly and pretend just for the briefest of moments that the peace, the loving serenity of God’s grace is there for you too.

Our blessings.

Saturday, July 11, 2009


Have you ever noticed the things that can happen to your body when you are afraid? If you are suddenly afraid you might feel your bowels loosen, but that is an extreme case. Certainly being afraid can quicken your heart, can make you break out into a sweat, or if you are a lady going through the change can bring on a hot flash. You might be unable to catch your breath, you might even feel faint. If you have a long time fear that goes on day in and day out your health can be negatively affected. You might cope with the fear by self-medicating, by smoking tobacco, by drinking or even by taking drugs. This is what some of the things fear can do.

If fear is familiar to you it could be said that you view reality through fear. Have you ever met somebody who is constantly happy? Do you think something is wrong with them? If a person who is relatively content most of the time goes through a bad experience that person is probably going to be better able to process the experience quickly and resume a balance in their life faster than someone who is saddled with fear.

Here’s what happens to someone who holds a lot of fear who opens psychically. They are probably not going to have an easy time of it. Even in the best of circumstances opening psychically is going to nudge whatever fears you have. I can almost guarantee that your psychic awakening is going to be horrible if you have a lot of fear. If you are more like a 3 year old who does not know the meaning of the word fear you will have an easier time of it. I’m not saying the process is always going to be totally easy, because no matter how well balanced you are you will need to make some adjustments in how you look at life and your belief systems. Doing this without fear is easier than doing it with fear.

Actually, it really doesn’t matter whether you are afraid or not because this is your journey and you’ve got lessons to learn whichever way you are. I’m just saying I’ve noticed if you don’t hold fear the process is smoother. How can I say this? Because I was afraid.

My first fear was when my guide started talking to me. He said, “I am not a Nickelodeon that you can put money in and get answers to your questions.” Yikes. Then, it took me awhile to understand the deep and burning questions I wanted answered just were not important enough to need answers. Questions like, “When am I going to die? How am I going to die?” Notice I was afraid of dying. They’ve never answered those questions for me other than to say early on in the beginning (which I tend to doubt now anyway) that I would be hit with a Mac Truck.

And, here’s a funny one for you. I asked my guide once if he had ever seen an alien. He was silent for long enough that I figured I’d just asked a really dumb question and it was not deserving of an answer when he said, “Who do you think you’ve been talking to all this time?” If you think about it an extraterrestrial being is somebody who doesn’t have a body like we do on Earth. The way I understand it the guides and folk in spirit I talk to are energy. No bodies.

Anyway, you don’t have to be afraid of your fears. Just take a close look at them when they come up for you to look at. Know that you will proceed through a psychic awakening whether you are afraid or not. Be ready to make a commitment to do your own psychological and emotional healing as things come up and you will be fine.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Ghost Busting 101

My husband, DeeDude, is a fan of the paranormal television shows. He likes to watch, “Ghost Hunters”, with Jason Hawes and Grant Wilson who work during the day as Roto-Rooter plumbers and who investigate haunted houses at night. He also likes, “Paranormal State”. This is a group of college students who formed a club called the Penn State Paranormal Research Society. It’s led by Ryan and has a neat psychic who assists named Chip. I have come to enjoy the shows too and if you click on the links I think you can watch some of their episodes online.

When I became a psychic there wasn’t a school to go to and I didn’t have a whole lot of direction. I read books about psychics and I would occasionally go get readings from psychics. To this day on my birthday I usually spring for a reading for myself from somebody I’ve never met before just to see how they do it. I learn from other psychics.

So, too, could I learn from these television shows.

As a psychic, though, I really haven’t had a whole lot of experience with ghosts. I’m a channel and I talk to guides and spirit teachers and the spirit of folks who have passed on. Looking back over the psychic experiences I’ve had over the years I might have had contact with ghosts, but I’m not totally certain. From what is related on the shows it’s a possibility, but again, I’m not 100% certain.

When a friend of DeeDude’s asked me to come to her house to investigate the ghosts there I was thrilled.

Now, I’m a plain channel. I’m no nonsense. I’m not as flamboyant as I used to be years ago when I drank. Drinking for me really loosened me up and I could give over to the whole experience more than I do now. So, basically, I guess I’m sort of dull.

I also channel anytime during the day. It doesn’t have to wait for night. I realize that night is spookier than day. I also realize that all those ghost hunters and paranormal investigators have other things to do during the day. Don’t we all? I do too. I’m a psychic secretary. But, I figured that talking to a ghost would likely be very similar to talking to dead guys when I am channeling.

I thought about it all as the days led up to our meeting. I knew certain things about the situation. I knew that the house was built over a cemetery. The lady had reported to me that they heard a baby crying during the night and that baby was never their own. They also heard noises during the day.

The day arrives. That morning DeeDude was watching one of his shows. It was funny because I was in the study and I heard him yelling from the living room, “It’s not going to work. You need to get the Catholics.” I thought, “What the hell?” and went out to see what was going on. In this particular show they were doing an exorcism to rid the family of their ghost. It was a Protestant minister conducting the exorcism. I went back into the study and would periodically hear comments from DeeDude as the show continued. Then I hear him say, “I told you. I told you that you had to get the Catholics in.” So, I wandered back out to the living room to come in on the tail end of the exorcism being conducted by a Catholic priest and some assistants. A member of the family was talking to one of the assistants to ask about the roses they smelled. The lady smiled and said that was the sign of a successful exorcism; the smell of roses was a sign of God’s grace. I thought it was interesting. DeeDude was still wound up and hooting around about how only Catholics can do an exorcism right.

On to our meeting that afternoon. I went with a girlfriend because the drive was long and I am not accustomed to driving outside of my own neighborhood. We arrived at the house and spent some time in the front courtyard before we met with the lady who had invited me. The courtyard was absolutely enchanting. I felt very good there. I couldn’t tell that I was having any psychic hits. I was not channeling anybody. There just didn’t seem to be anybody there to talk to. I don’t say things like, “Hello? Is anybody there? Where are you?” I used to in my earlier days, but now as a channel if somebody is there to talk to they are there.

When we went inside the house she gave us a tour. You can walk in a circle around the house. I asked what was upstairs and she told me that they have never been up into the crawl space upstairs. She pointed out that under a piece of decking in the back yard were stairs going down into a root cellar. Nobody had been down there either and from the manner in which she told me this I understood that this was a spooky area and nobody wanted to go down there.

I understood the lady and her husband were somewhat anxious about the things going on in the house.

Her daughter was with a friend and some neighbor hood girls who were babysitting while we did our ghost-buster thing. Everybody appeared to be relaxed and having fun.

I still had not gotten any sort of uneasy feeling or psychic hits about anything.

Then, as we paused in the hallway she told me about the sounds of a baby crying they had heard over and over again during the night. As she told me the sounds had stopped in their frequency after they had gotten a baby monitor I had my first psychic hit. I told her immediately my feeling was the ghosts were interested and protecting her little girl. I said they were testing her to see that she would be a good mother and attend to the well being of her daughter and once she’d gotten the baby monitor things had calmed down a bit in that regard. That had a feel to me of the truth of a direct psychic hit.

The other thing that I’d been thinking about all week was that to my way of thinking ghosts would be as reasonable as anybody else. The business with the television showmanship of provoking a ghost or talking to them in a less than respectful fashion just didn’t seem right. Working on that premise I sent out my psychic feelers and came back with the following information: I felt there were a number of ghosts involved. It was their home as well as the people who lived in the house. My thought was there was no reason why everybody couldn’t live together in peace.

The first thing everybody always wants to know when they are channeling is who they are talking to. Names are sometimes difficult because when you get into a mode of trying too hard nothing works. I have always said to folks that they could just assign a name to their guides and go from there. If there is to be a change in name down the road then that’s fine too, but in the interim you’ve at least gotten over the bump of what your guide’s name is. I figured we could go that route with the ghosts in this cemetery. Right then the name Jack came to me. It really doesn’t matter if it’s real or not, Jack works okay.

So, I told her she could call their ghost spokesperson Jack.

I also tell people who want me to relay messages on to their loved ones who have passed on that they don’t need a psychic to do that. They can talk to their loved ones themselves. It doesn’t matter whether the things they want to say are out loud or just silent thoughts, even snippets of thoughts work. Your loved ones can hear you. I am totally convinced of this. You might not be able to hear them, but they can hear you anytime, anywhere, anyhow.

I figured this was probably the same thing with a ghost so I told her that she could talk reasonably to Jack and in return Jack ought to be reasonable back to her. I just figured it could be that way.

No fuss, no muss. Plain speaking. And the message was, “Thanks for looking out for us. We are interested in living here in peace with you. You were here first, but this is also our home. Please stop with the noises you are making at night to awaken us. Please stop with the crying baby alerts. We’re on top of it, though we do appreciate the time you are taking to make sure we are vigilant parents. Have a nice day.” Something along those lines would work.

What occurs to me now as I write this is that the ghosts might be interested in a little conversation once in awhile. She’s reported to me that the baby crying has continued. Maybe the ghosts just want to talk.

The last neat thing that happened was the day after our ghost-busting her husband smelled roses as they watched television.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Awakening Psychic Abilities

The way you make changes in any part of your life is to practice in your mind and believe that the thing is true.

For instance a person who practices their golf swing over and over in their mind, day dreaming about it, seeing it, feeling it, really getting into the imaginary day dream about their perfect golf swing is likely to be able to execute that same golf swing out on the golf course too. Practice your Spanish? Imagine cooking? Sew a seam? All of those things can take their place in your imaginary day dreaming.

So, how to apply that to awakening your psychic abilities? If you work on the premise that you are already psychic that helps. If you work on the premise that the “signs” are there already and you are just not noticing that works too.

So how are you supposed to notice the “signs” being given to you from the great beyond? Become more aware. How? Think sensory overload. Think radios, internet, television, people at work, telephone calls, clamor, clamor, clamor. Think of how much is going on around you at any given moment that you tune out in favor of concentrating on only the things you feel are worth noticing. You already know how to tune out clamor. Think now of things psychic that you would like to know about. Often those signs are quiet.

Okay, so perhaps you need to get quiet. You seek a quiet mind. Meditate.

What’s meditation going to do? It will help you to settle for a little bit. It will show you in the beginning just how active your mind is. It’s hard to meditate. Get a book about it. There are lots of ways to go about it. I would suggest short periods of meditation. Don’t think you are doing any good by saying you were able to sit for 4 hours mediating. That’s way too much. You would need a meditation coach for that sort of meditation because the first thing that is going to emerge is all the psychological crap you’ve buried for years. So, do it slowly at first and get a book to help you.

Another thing for you to do is start keeping a journal to record your impressions, your dreams, whatever floats your boat. This is a private journal. Meditating however long you do it has a way of getting you to cough up the phlegmy gagging mucous of your own psychological stuff. Getting it out onto paper helps for you to make a start at sorting it out.

All of this is helping you to notice things.

Take up a hobby. Perhaps something that you’ve always wanted to do and just never allowed yourself the time to indulge yourself. Get lost in it. I don’t know why this step works, but it does.

Read stories of other psychic’s lives to see what they experienced. It might happen this is something you can relate to.

Be prepared for the reasons you initially began this journey to change. For instance, you began with the idea that if you were psychic people would stop picking on you. You’d be able to frighten them into a position of awe. What’s going to happen is as you chip away at the barriers between your non-psychic self and your psychic self you’ll also chip away at the insecurity you feel. Once that’s gone your reason to be psychic will need to change because you will no longer care what people think of you.

Being psychic is not going to make you a more powerful or wealthy person. Being psychic is going to put you on the fast track for taking care of your own psychological and emotional growth and, I believe, will enrich your life.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

The Stand - What I'm Reading

So, I’ve been sick with the flu for the last week and a half. I took 3 days off from work last week, was sick all weekend and tried to go to work this week. Monday I made it. Tuesday I was sick again. Wednesday I made it. Thursday I’m home sick again. I think tomorrow will be okay to be at work. If I have a coughing fit (which is what plagues me most these days) I can just go into the conference room and cough my brains out for awhile until it is over. Hopefully, by tomorrow I won’t be having them anymore.

Anyway, I’m on the mend. It’s been a tough flu. My temp got up to 103.8 when I visited the doctor last week. Not swine flu, but enough of a flu to lay me low. My diabetes numbers have all been real high. On a brighter note, I lost 6 pounds which hasn’t come back on yet, so maybe will stay off. Haven’t been this low since I quit smoking more than 8 years ago.

Anyway, early on in the course of this sickness with all the H1N1 news going on in the world I decided it would be appropriate to re-read, “The Stand” by Stephen King. This was the first King book I ever read and the one that got me hooked on him as a writer. I’ve read it at least 3 times. This version is paperback and was updated somewhat. Also, there are parts that were cut, but I’m still enjoying it.

So, I’m about half way through. Frannie has a bunch of excerpts from the diary she is keeping as she, Harold, Stu and Glen Bateman make their way first to Vermont and now on to Nebraska. They’d met up with 2 people, both dead now, so their group swelled briefly is now back to their smaller size of 4. To bring you up to speed, Glen is a sociologist who absolutely cannot help himself but to ponder the existence of mankind after the Superflu (Captain Trips) hit. The Army had developed this horrible flu. There was an accident and it got loose and in the space of a month’s time it killed most everybody in the world.

Harold is younger than Frannie and they knew each other before. Frannie is pregnant, though nobody knows about it and Harold pretends that he is in love with her, that he is the smartest in the group, that he should be leader and he is an absolute butt. Frannie feels obligated to take care of Harold because he is the younger brother of her now deceased best friend. Stu was almost at ground zero when he and his town were exposed to the people who had escaped the accidental release of the flu. The army moved in to quarantine everybody and became extremely interested in Stu Redmond when he did not develop the flu. He escaped their clutches. These are the survivors.

Anyway, I want to wrap this up and get to the point of what I wanted to say. Had to take 20 minutes out for a horrible coughing fit and I don’t think it’s quite done yet.

In Frannie’s diary she’d been recounting a discussion they’d been having about the dreams they all seemed to be sharing, especially of the guy they’d started to refer to as, “The Dark Man”. Purely evil and out to stalk all of them. On the other hand was Mother Abigail who is 108 years old living in Nebraska who represented what was good in the world. Some were being drawn to The Walking Dude and others drawn to Mother Abigail. But, the discussion they were having was how odd it was that they were all having the same sort of dreams. Glen, the sociologist said, “Whenever something overtly paranormal occurs the only explanation that really fits well and holds its interior logic is the theological one. That’s why psychics and religion have always gone hand in hand, right up to your modern-day faith-healers.”

Now, remember, I’m a psychic channel. That’s key to what’s really funny here. Because just as I read that part one of the guides said to me, “Well, who are you going to talk to in the dead of night?” Maybe it’s just me, but I thought it was funny.

Thursday, April 09, 2009

Good Biorhythms today

Check out what your own biorhythms are doing today. Mine are sweet. First picture is for Physical (red), Emotional (green) and Intellectual (blue).

Second picture is Mastery (pink), Wisdom (blue) and Passion (yellow). You can find out what your own are at

Sunday, April 05, 2009

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Where I PIck a Card

I have a deck of cards I use occasionally called The Power Deck by Lynn V. Andrews. You’re supposed to spread the cards out on your bed or table and pick the one that appeals to you at that moment in time. Each one has a beautiful picture on it, sort of metaphysical, new-age, sometimes odd, but very striking and always sort of interesting.

Today, sitting at my computer, finished writing one blog entry about trusting your higher self, I decided to put my money where my mouth was. I closed my eyes and centered a little bit and asked for guidance from higher self. Then, on a variation of spreading out the cards, I just started thumbing through them. I stopped at this one turned it over and read the message:

Individuality – When the shield carrier reaches the top of the mountain, she never seeks approval, because approval is based on doubt. Your strength and wisdom are celebrated in your unique ability to view the experience of life with new vision. Power lies in individuality and the ability to see yourself through your own eyes and not through the eyes of another. To be in power, you must take your power and exist within your own individuality.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

5 Officers Shot in Oakland, California

I have some sad news to report from my city. Saturday afternoon, 3/21/09, during a routine traffic stop two Oakland police officers were shot. One was killed and the other was declared brain dead Sunday afternoon. About two hours after the shooting during the traffice stop at 3:00 PM on Saturday police converged on an apartment building not far from the first shooting in an attempt to apprehend the suspect. He opened fire with an automatic weapon on the policemen killing two and injuring another.. The suspect was killed.

Please say a prayer for all concerned. You can read more about it here.

Thursday, February 26, 2009


Almost every expectation about channeling I had was shot down within the first year. This wasn’t a bad thing, it was just what happened to me. Maybe, if you’re learning how to channel, something similar might happen to you too.

One of the things I thought was that my life from that moment forward would be safe. I’d be safe. The people around me would be safe. My guide would save me from harm.

What I didn’t understand then was about the lessons we all have to learn at a higher level, specifically from our higher selves. I’d never heard of a higher self. I thought it was just me. Well, once the guides had given me a larger picture of what goes on and this had also been confirmed in many of the books I was reading I began to better understand the phrase, “shit happens”. I also better understood about personal responsibility and personal choices.

I remember so much of my childhood and early adulthood was spent like a leaf floating on the surface of the sea. I’d be here, I’d be there, but none of it was through my own choice, it was just me being swept this way or that. This lead directly toward the idea of it wasn’t my fault, it was somebody else’s fault, it didn’t involve me because I didn’t choose it; stuff like that.

I got over these ideas in a hurry that first year I learned how to channel.

So, here it is in a nutshell: you are not a victim. No matter what is happening to you, you are not a victim. You can change your life. You really can. Everything that happens to you happens because you made a conscious choice or your higher self stepped in (I still wonder at that) and decided it was time for you to move onto the next lesson because you weren’t getting there fast enough.

My advice? Pay attention. Stop blaming others for the stuff that happens to you. Move forward out of the mire of self blame, of whining, of despair, of hate. Doing this is going to involve a whole lot of soul searching and perhaps even some professional help. Go get a book about how to move through psychological and emotional growth.

If something shitty happens to you try and figure out what you’re supposed to learn. Higher selves aren’t always forthcoming with those sorts of answers although you are always welcome to ask them via a quiet meditative state, asking them directly and waiting quietly for an answer which might come to you in a vision, in a dream later on that night, in a flash of understanding or in actual words in your head.

I believe that people are resilient, that they really can come away from a bad experience smelling like a rose.

Okay, practicalities. You were just let go. These days our economy really sucks and there are a lot of people who are being let go from their jobs. What can you learn from something like that? Something that is positive? So, maybe you were a hermit all tied up in your job. This will expose you to a lot of other people as you let your feet hit the road looking for new work. Maybe it’s time for a change in career? Maybe it’s time for you to learn about flipping burgers instead of crunching numbers. You’re going to be bringing a lot of talent to a new job. You’ll obviously need to cut back on expenses. We’re a nation of over-consumers. Make a move to bare minimums and enjoy it. Always try to be optimistic. You’re always going to find something good if you look hard enough.

This is an opportunity for you to get to know the passengers on the bus line instead of being the only one in your car zipping here and there. This is an opportunity for you to conserve your resources rather than buying the best, the latest model, the most expensive. This is an opportunity to start examining core values.

This is an opportunity for you to ask for help. You’ve been so self sufficient all this time. You take pride in the idea that you’ve never had to ask for help. Could be this is what some of the lesson is about; you asking for help.

And, maybe this is the opportunity for you to help. How could you even think about giving help when you need it so badly yourself right now? Well, maybe you haven’t done much all these years about giving to others other than the gift of money every once in awhile as a donation. Maybe it’s time to become more involved in your community and give of your time and talents.

This economic crisis is affecting all of us. What could you learn from it?

My postscript: This was supposed to be an article in my upcoming March newsletter, except it got too long. So, I figured it would be a good blog post.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Talking to Spirit

It used to be when I was younger, when I did drugs and drank and later, as I got older and stopped doing drugs, but continued to drink I realized I was trying to alter my reality. It was in that boozy place that every once in awhile I could feel a little bit of that other place. I knew it was there. It wasn’t just the whole big world. It was a place in my head and heart. It was a bigger place I didn’t normally walk about in. It was a glimpse of another reality.

Then came the day when I didn’t want to touch the stars in a false way anymore. I didn’t want to go there with drugs or drink. I wanted the real thing. What I had with the artificial things was a way to get there, but there was a nightmarish quality about it. I wanted to remember. I wanted to participate fully. I wanted to talk to God.

That’s when I began to search. Although the path I was on meandered quite a bit I realize now that it was the best way for me to get here. I’m happy. I have a different relationship now with my higher self, with the Guides, with Folk in Spirit.

I believe in the power of prayer. I think of the people who come to my sites carrying anguish in their hearts and even though they might never say a blessed word to me I include them in my prayers in the dead of night. I ask that the universe be kind to them if it is at all possible or permissible. I ask that they be able to recognize peace and participate more fully in whatever is best for them. I ask that their paths be as smooth as they can possibly handle. I know if you’ve got to get somewhere you can either do it the hard way or the easy way. It’s the responsibility of the person to make their own choices, but I haven’t given up that Spirit won’t help us in times of need.

I can’t give you a number for the people I pray for. There were times when I’d forget someone and feel bad when I did remember, but the guides said that everybody who needed my prayers were always there whether I consciously remembered them or not. I was comforted by that thought and continue my prayers.

Sometimes in the dead of night I throw my thoughts, my heart, my energies out there to bind with other healers working too, to help them, to help my folks, to help their folks. It’s like a network. I’ve never met any of them, but it is on faith that I feel they are already there.

And, through it all, I send my prayers out for those I don’t even know, who might be in need of something.

I’m not sure if this is the right way to do it, but I’m drawn to it. Sometimes I would wonder if I was just delusional about the whole thing, but even if it was spitting into the wind I feel I would still do it.

And, I would take whatever healing and peace was out there for my own. I pray quietly. I’ve never talked about how I pray.

I get quiet. I am quiet. I pretend I feel the energies. I sense an updraft moving up and out from me. A wonderful drift of smoke that I can see. It’s not really smoke, but it moves like it. It’s essence. I follow it. Up out to undulate upon the night sky. Above the city. Above the lights. No longer can I see the traffic. My face is turned now to see the other wisps of energy, of thought, of other prayer that rises up and away.

There’s a net, a web, an intersecting mesh of fragile cord. All of us out there. Our essence joined in purpose, in love. Everybody out there a part of what makes the world. Not just healers everybody. What do you do when you get there? Participate. Enjoy. And, when you come back? Wonder if it was real. Pretend it was.

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Some Channeling

It is in the act of doing that progress might be made. You can only study so much and then you must, in order to complete the lesson, act upon what it is that you have learned. According to your level of perception you will either get it or not. Now, it does not in any way matter that you do not “get” a particular lesson. You might not be ready to get it. It might be three or four years from now before you are ready to understand all the ramifications, or at least some of them, of any particular lesson.

What will equip you to make real and valid progress with anything that you are learning is not to get the stuffed head about it. In this we speak of believing that you are the best in your field of endeavor. If you can always think of yourself as a student, as one who is constantly learning, even though you are able to teach now what you have learned, you will be able to improve upon that which you know now.

Our blessings to the chela.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Becoming Psychic

Becoming psychic isn’t a case of you being the ordinary you that you’ve been for the last 35 years on Monday and suddenly being a gifted psychic on Tuesday.

There’s a space between Monday and Tuesday that could last for several years. It’s what you do during the psychic development that will determine the quality of experience you have.

These are not hard and fast rules, but just things that I have noticed.

If you enjoy being spooked, then pursuing a course of psychic development is not for you. If you have an adventurous streak in you, go for it. If you are superstitious, don’t go for it. If you can accept responsibility easily, go for it. If you are more comfortable blaming everybody else for your problems, don’t go for it.

Mostly, what I am describing is a mature person as someone who would be a good candidate to pursue their own psychic development. People up into their mid twenties do not fall into a good category of psychic student. They just don’t. If you’re an old fart like I am I’m more than happy to help you along. If all you want to know is when you are going to get married or who your boy friend is sleeping with I don’t want to talk to you.

Anyway, once you’ve moved through this rather blunt culling of whether you think you’d be a likely person to develop their psychic abilities you can focus in on any or all of the following things during this transition:

Learn to focus your concentration. Meditation really helps with this.

Begin remembering your dreams. Begin recording these dreams.

Learn to do your own psychological fine tuning. You will be overwhelmed with opportunities for real psychological and emotional growth during this process. It’s almost a required thing. Doing things the way you’ve been doing them up to now won’t work as well. Just letting things meander along year in and year out isn’t good enough anymore. You can accept the responsibility to take care of yourself emotionally and psychologically which means either start reading self help books or hire a therapist for awhile to help you understand.

See if you are drawn to using a tool of divination. Runes or Tarot are good. Learn what the meanings of the stones or of the cards are. Do some homework. Exercise those brain muscles. And, do readings on yourself. On yourself. On yourself. After a long time do readings for other people, but in the beginning? On yourself.

Start a personal journal to record your feelings during this time of transition. This is going to help, too, with the psychological and emotional growth you will experience.

If you are drinking too much or if you are doing drugs you can stop. Right now. Substance abuse only makes for a really strange and odd psychic.

There appears to be a lot of activity in the lower astral realms. This is drama. This is excitement. This is not for the inexperienced. This is only going to interfere with your good psychic development. After you’re good at it you can dabble there, but for now aim for the highest level you can. You can safely move toward your own Guide. Everybody has several. Stay focused on the one guide. This first year while you’re talking to Folk in Spirit talk to your Guide.

Read about other psychics and guides: Sylvia Browne, John Edward, Findhorn, Messages from Michael, the Seth books. You’ll come upon more of them.

Begin to trust in the universe. You’ll know what moves to make when it is appropriate for you to make those moves. Somebody or some book will come your way. There isn’t one path here. There are many you can take. And, they all lead to the same place if your aim is true.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

How I Do A Psychic Reading

What follows here has channeling in it. I've set the Guide's part off in another color.

The point, generally, of developing psychic abilities is to engage in psychic readings for people. The manner in which a reader conducts their reading is going to be different from anybody else’s way.

What you’re doing is to tap into Spirit to see if there might be any answers for the person who wants the reading. Or, just guidance.

I like to look at the overall picture. The person has asked their question or stated their concern. I have that in mind and then I do a dip. It’s like dipping below the waves when I do it.

So, I’m going to try to explain to you how I do a psychic reading.

I’ve got to be in the zone. It’s a different place. It’s a place of Spirit. It’s a place that doesn’t have the stuff in it that usually distracts me or annoys me. There’s no place here for me to be thinking about cleaning the house, or what’s going on at work. I can’t worry about the car here. And, this actually, is where a practice of meditation comes in to bear fruit. It’s the removing yourself from the usual distractions of life to go to a quiet place that is very helpful here.

How do I get to this place? If my mind is busy with a lot of stuff I almost have to keep moving deep time after time. It’s not easy to do this. Some people are good at it. I have to say I’m not. So, for me sometimes it is a struggle. At some point I sort of give up the struggle of moving deeper and content myself with where I am. That’s key too. So, even though I know I could have done a better job of it I have to say to myself in order to do the reading I need to be content with where I landed.

I don’t know if others do it this way, but it’s the way I do it now. Perhaps it’s all a process and 3 years from now I’ll be doing it differently. I like to think that. I’m not done learning either.

Then, with the concern of the individual at the back of my mind, with the idea of the person in my mind I move forward. Or, rather, I wait to be swept to wherever I need to be.

The images come to me quickly sometimes. So, this first part is a “seeing” that I do. I’ll have a picture of a huge open field, like a prairie before me. Not so many trees, but miles and miles of sky. And, no people. It’s a lonely place, or it could be, but I don’t feel lonely looking at it. I also pay attention to how I am feeling. If I feel an uneasiness that might mean something too. Sometimes, when I’m wound up I will discount what I see and say, “Oh, no. This isn’t right.” This is where I need to do my own learning. Just for these few moments in time you could urge yourself to just be a witness and try to stay out of being involved in what you are seeing.

Sometimes I lay some ground rules, like: I don’t want to see anybody dying or being murdered. It’s sort of a wimpy way of doing a psychic reading, but, hey, I’m the one doing it and I just don’t want to see any gory stuff right now. Maybe after I’ve done this awhile I can handle stuff like that, but for now? Today? No thanks. So, I have that as a proviso moving into the reading. I don’t know if it works, but if it doesn’t and you are suddenly on a hard beaten floor of earth looking up through a thicket of tumbleweed you can pull out of it quickly enough. Like one of the guides just said, “Just say no.” anyway, that did happen to me once. And, this is where the clairvoyance comes into play. No only was I seeing what somebody once saw I also knew that they died there.

Anyway, what I think I could be doing is to just not react to the violence or hardship that I might see for an individual. And, for that I would need to do my own psychological work. Like I’ve been urging people from day one with this stuff is that you filter the things you see and experience in the spiritual realm through your own human beingness warts and all.

But, this also brings up the doubt of the reading. So, you think you’re screwing up the reading by just being you. Practice. Practice. Practice. Like one of the guides just said to me: Ubung macht den meister, which means: practice makes the master. I actually don’t speak German very well. It’s what I call Gasthaus Deutsch. When I’ve had a few beers to drink I speak it better. And, since I quit drinking 9 years ago….well, it’s just not very good. But, every once in awhile one of the guides will say something in another language. Keeps me on my toes.

Anyway, back to the psychic reading. So, I’ve seen stuff. I’m starting to know stuff. And, finally, because I channel better than I do anything else I dip into channeling mode. And, I might as well do that now too. Oh, I forgot, on the “practice” reading I was doing this morning in bed just after I’d awakened what I was seeing shifted from the open plain to waves crashing on a rocky coast. Somehow I knew this to be in Ireland. Then, it moved into a village and very, very quickly zoomed in on a red brick house set right on the road to an upstairs window that was covered with a window shade. It wasn’t a pristine white. It was a faded and yellowed shade. And, something ominous was going on in that room. And, naturally, since I’m a wimp I pulled away from the vision.

So, for the next stage of this reading, since I did have that rather detailed vision about an hour ago before I got up I’m going to dip back into it and do some channeling.

Dipping…Remembering…. In this we are pleased to have been called in for assistance in this imaginary reading. What was not said was the person receiving the reading does not necessarily have to be a person the reader has met in the flesh, so to speak. This person might have telephoned, or emailed, or written a letter. Remember that you are all connected, one to the other, with strings of silver. You don’t normally see them, but it is there. The structure of the universe is a web and you are a part of it.

As Pauline has said she is a wimpy reader. This is not a fault. She does not do readings anymore for people as they were too draining upon her, but she can do them. And, as is evident today has proven to herself that she can still do it. It’s like riding a bicycle.

Hey, can I interrupt here? Yes. Something else that happened when I stopped doing readings was there were some who didn’t like what I said. Well, Dear, that is your own problem is it not? Well, yes, but I didn’t want to deal with it anymore. Why do you think they didn’t like their readings? Because they sucked. You didn’t read correctly? No, the news wasn’t pleasant. So, whoever said that a psychic reading always had to be good news? Okay, okay. You’ve got a point. I’m just a wimpy reader. No, Dear, you are a good teacher. Okay, I’ll stop and let you guys get back to it.

So, we might continue with our portion of the reading. What has been set forth so far is the visual part of the reading and that is of place. First, the prairie and then the rocky coast of Ireland, then a brick building with a shuttered window.

Within that house there is pain. There is anguish. There is grieving. The damage is done in the sense that the woman, the young woman who is gone will never return. There is a question in the minds of the people who live within these rooms as to what happened to their daughter. They will never know for sure. They have their suspicions, but someone saying to them that their daughter’s remains have been found will never happen. If, just if you were doing a real reading, which this actually is, but to think of it as a real reading as opposed to a practice reading you, the reader, would become too caught up in it to do it justice. In any case, we would say to those people that number one they will move naturally through the grieving process. But, in order to start that they might make the decision in their minds to say their daughter is dead to them. She will not return. Now, they can begin the grieving process. The questions will never be answered as to what actually happened. And, the pain never really goes completely away. But, if it makes any difference their daughter, having passed over, is happy. Karma was involved, but when she incarnates again it will be taken care of. There is justice in the world and if justice is not served in this lifetime it will be served in subsequent lifetimes.

For now, she is happy. She is content to be helping others. She is invigorated and stimulated by the things she is continuing to learn. She has expanded beyond the person she was in your hearts to claim every inch of her soul and of her higher self. She is wise beyond her years. She holds love in her heart towards you and towards everyone who has touched her in that lifetime and in other lifetimes too. She is reunited with blood relatives from this lifetime. She is reunited with children she had in previous lifetimes. She is greeted with joy by her husbands from other lifetimes.

You might think her life was cut short all too quickly. But, it was not. She lived exactly how much she intended to live and has moved on to the next step. She knows you miss her. She knows you love her. Someday she can visit you in your dreams and show you how very joyful her life is right now.

Our blessings.

Hey, thanks. You are welcome.

Anyway, that’s a reading the way I do them. And, if you don’t want to be relaying messages of this sort to another human being and risk their anger, pain, etc. Just do a practice one.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

The Benefit of Taking a Deeper Breath

I find myself caught up in the hurry scurry of everyday stuff much of the time. Work can be categorized as putting out fires much of the time. Sure, we’ve got regular duties, but intruding upon that are the urgent needs of many people. That’s why I liken it to putting out fires. Anyway, that’s neither here nor there. Many people have the same issues at work and at home, so it’s not that I’m complaining. More, I’m trying to understand why I allow myself to get caught up in it so much of the time.

If I could set aside some time for me and me alone, I think that might be an answer. And, interestingly, as I sat down here to write this entry I closed my eyes while my fingers rested on the keyboard and took a really deep breath. It didn’t take but 3 seconds. Then, when I opened my eyes it was easy to start writing.

It was a co-worker who told me to breathe deeply the other day. She could tell I was moving into over-load. I hadn’t noticed since I was on the roller coaster and didn’t have plans to get off of it anytime too soon. I’ve thought more and more about what she said to me. Even before I knew the value of breathing deeply prior to beginning a session of writing but I just hadn’t thought a great deal about it in the midst of a very busy day at work.

The two halves of my life sometimes seem to be so different from each other. But, I suppose, in reality they are not. I’m here in my blogs and at my website to serve. I try to help people through the uncertainty of psychic awakening, through the grieving process, and to a place where they might take a mature and responsible hand in the direction of their own spiritual growth. I suppose I must try to bring something of the same to my work.

So, it’s a small step. Or, breath. It took only a few seconds and I feel a lot better too.