So, what do you say after ten years?  Hi.  Could start with that.  I’ve retired and life has never been better.  I am sheltering at home because of Covid, though I have gotten 2 of the Pfizer vaccines.  My husband is also vaccinated.  He still has a job.

Right now, I am writing a book about how to channel.  It is during the NaNoWriMo Summer Camp 2021.  The entire month of July you vow to write your heart out.  I’m aiming for 50,000 words and am presently sitting at about 36,000.  Almost there.  I’ve got another 12 days to write.  Ah, maybe about 1,180 words a day.  I can do that. 

In any case, I am more active on Facebook and Reddit  where I am u/pmevanosky these days.  I also submit monthly articles to an online e-zine called Pencil Stubs.  My articles are in the WooWoo section each month.  I also enjoy being on Pinterest. 

I am absolutely loving reading and get many free books from Amazon for my Kindle.  If you are interested get on a mailing list for Weberbooks.com and you will get an email everyday with free and reduced price books. 

I enjoy my husband and my cats.  I write, crochet, weave and am trying to learn how to draw. 

Oh, This is Fantastic

You've got to see this. I was so impressed. Go to YouTube and search for RSA. Lots of really interesting lectures illustrated while you learn.

It's Nice to Be Back

How to turn the last 6 months of my life into a post. Why? Well, I wasn’t in jail. I’d like to explain. Why? Well, a blog is your story. You don’t have to explain yourself to anybody. Just pick up where we left off? Yes.

You’re right. As a note of explanation….the bold stuff is what my guides are saying. In this instance it is Seth. I’ve been channeling since 1993.  I talk more about channeling here and about learning how here.

One place we left off was me dithering around trying to migrate this blog into my own domain name. It wouldn’t work. I tried Word Press and I tried TypePad. Didn’t care for either of them and didn’t want to spend the time to learn them. Solved that just now by having the blog be a link on the website. Now, I can have my cake and eat it too.

The next plan would be to get the blog to look a little more like the website. I think that may be doable.

I’ve recently started in writing reviews of the books I’m reading. That also went on hiatus for awhile. I was still reading, I just didn’t write about any of the books I was reading. Mostly, there were all old favorites I’m read many times before. No point in yarning on about them again.

Maybe I’ll start carving crochet hooks again. It’s nice to be back.

Saturday Morning

I’ve spent years attempting to know what it’s like to be in somebody else’s shoes. Some people who know me have said that is a foolish thing to do and I should not waste my time, but somehow I am compelled to do it.

What happens is that many times I seem to understand why a person might have acted the way they did. Or, at least, I come up with what might be a plausible explanation. Now, what good is this? Well, as a writer I am interested to know my own characters. If I make a habit of trying to know what makes a person tick don’t you think that would be something a writer would use to pull a character together?

And, yet, I don’t write. Or, at least, I don’t write well. The one story I wrote was finished over 20 years ago and gathers dust under my bed. I learned a lot writing it, but the characters are stiff and uninteresting from my present point of view.

Does this mean that because I find myself still practicing this habit of trying to get under another’s skin that there is hope for me to develop good characters in the future? Somehow I don’t think so, but you never know what might happen.

I suppose you might say the usefulness of doing this study of human nature has been proven to myself over the years in being able to offer differing degrees of comfort to others. Anybody might be in this position. Your friend is going through some tough times and tells you about it. You offer a suggestion. Maybe it helps; maybe it doesn’t help. But, you tried.

So, that’s the news at 12 in the morning while I endeavor to write next month’s Talking to Spirit Newsletter. Just something interesting I thought about.

Channeling From Seth About Drawing

No matter how hard you work in order to achieve the path of advancement one might adopt a practice of evaluation periodically. In this way you might be able to set both long and short term goals for whatever it is that you endeavor to do.

The goals that you make might be based upon the thing you wish to accomplish. These steps are necessary to be able to see that progress is being made. Much as a child receives report cards during the course of the time they spend in school, so too could you apply the practice of self evaluation to ensure that you are making some sort of project with your own projects.

For instance, if you have always wanted to draw but have never tried because you feel you have no talent, the first thing you might do is to say phooey to talent and proceed with your dream. Understand that drawing employs a way of seeing most do not ordinarily practice. In the struggle to learn to write a person is, at first, halting in their progress, but their teachers demand of them time spent and much practice until the words, the vocabulary becomes available to them and the act of writing no longer stands between thought and paper. It moves smoothly. Our channel who enjoys writing says to people who profess an inability to write, “You can tell me a story can’t you? Well, you can write.”

So, a beginning practice to learn how to draw would be to look at things differently. Yes, you see an apple before you. Now, look at the area outside of the skin of the apple. Look at the edge of the apple before you and the space next to it. Imagine this border is a line. See how it curves. Focus on the apple. Begin to note in your mind all the different things about the apple. The way the colors change. The way the light strikes upon the skin. See how the stem extends from the top. Notice how the skin is different at that point from the skin that stretches around the middle of the apple.

Now, take a bite out of the apple. Study it again. Look at how the flesh of the apple is different from the outside. Look at your own bite mark and see how different the cut is from the cut made by a knife. Now, have a look at the shadow behind the apple. That is also a part of what would be a picture of the apple.

Finally, pick up a pencil. With your eyes on the apple slowly move around and over the apple with your eyes. As your eyes move so does your pencil upon the paper. Think in terms of lines and not of apple. Follow the lines without looking at your paper. Keep your eyes trained upon the apple and your pencil in constant contact with the paper. Do not lift your pencil at any time. Do this slowly. Do this with deliberation. At the end of this exercise look at your paper and see how you did. Your starting line likely will not meet up with your ending line, but you should have a somewhat distorted picture of an apple.

Do this exercise over and over again with other objects. Draw your hand. Draw simple objects. As your drawing muscles get exercised your hand and your eye will begin to move together. Crumple up a piece of paper and draw the complicated folds of the paper.

An interesting effect of this new skill you are developing is that you are also using parts of your brain not normally used. Learning how to draw will enable you to access your creativity more easily. It is also a most welcome introduction to being able to focus more completely and to learn how to meditate.

This is a very basic lesson in how to draw. Be open to other teachers who will certainly come your way; books from the library, shows on television or, perhaps a class you can take.

Keep a record of your dated drawings and periodically look at them. With a few hours spent on the project every week your progress is assured and looking at your simple drawings will do much to boost your confidence in this new skill of drawing.

Oh, Go Dig Up Some Dirt

I was looking in Google at all the talking to the dead searches. My website of Talking to Spirit was right up there on top, by the way. But, as I looked down the list and read the snippets of what people were saying, if you discounted what the skeptics were talking about, much of it wasn’t all that much different from what I have to say.

I wondered then if I’d ever have anything new to say about the dead. That’s when Seth said, “Not unless we dig somebody up.”

Have you ever heard a ladylike snort? Right. Me either.

DeeDude

My husband is such a dish. I've been playing with my new camera and trying to learn all about it. Canon Rebel Xsi. Anyway, I played around with taking a picture of a picture of DeeDude. This is from 35 years ago or so.

Slowing Down

So, the blogging has bogged down for a little bit. As time goes by and I learn what I’m doing at work and relax a bit I’ll have the energy to come out and blog more often. In the meantime go get your flu shot…I’m thinking of you.

Opening to Spirit

I used to be quite jealous of people who had things come to them easily. I can remember as a child my parents speaking of individuals who had photographic memories and in my child-like mind I would think if I could have a photographic memory my parents would be proud of me. It never happened, but that sense of not being the best at whatever it was sat heavily on my small shoulders.

So, as an adult I was in awe of people who channeled. I figured it was just something I could never hope to accomplish. I went along for quite a few years thinking along those lines, and, of course, it never happened for me.

It wasn’t until I happened upon a book called, “Creating Money” by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer that I was exposed to the idea that maybe I could have more control over my situation than I thought. From, “Creating Money” I was quickly led to, “Opening to Channel” by the same people and for the very first time I read that not only could I make changes in my material life, but I could make changes in my spiritual life.

There was no holding me back at that point. What I had yearned for had a chance of actually coming true. I began with the exercises in the book. And, even though I still had a shoot yourself in the foot way of looking at life I did make progress. It wasn’t as straightforward as presented in the book. My own journey involved twists and turns where I learned how to draw, learned how to write, and began a healing journey by keeping a journal, I did eventually make what I considered to be a solid connection with my guide.

Now, as I look at it all in retrospect I see that what I did to make that breakthrough to Spirit was done exactly right for me. It did seem to take a long time. It didn’t go according to the plans outlined in, “Opening to Channel”. But, it was perfectly right for me. I’m still learning about it all. I still strive to address feelings of inadequacy. But, I’m really glad to have this wonderful connection to Spirit.

And, the really good news? If I did it, you can too.

Breathing Room

I have talked occasionally on ruts and how to get out of them. Having great personal experience with ruts I figured I was probably as qualified as the next person to talk about them. Plus, this is my site, so I can talk about what I want to talk about.

But, what happens when the stuff you do doesn’t please you anymore?

Recently, my life took a rather abrupt turn and I find myself concentrating on new things at work. There is a lot to learn and a lot to remember. I’m working longer. I’m thinking about these things even when I’m not at work. It’s taking a lot of energy. I know it’s not going to be a permanent thing and I’ll probably be getting the hang of it a year or so down the line, but for now I’m preoccupied with it.

Entries to my blogs bottomed out. The newsletter I’ve been writing for 5 years crapped out. I missed the August edition and last weekend found myself almost panicky as I sat in front of my computer for the 25th time trying in vain to find something interesting to write about that I hadn’t already beat to death in previous newsletters. Nothing came to mind. It was a bad writer’s block.

Then, I talked to my friend who suggested that I stop with the newsletter for a few months and see at the end of that time if it was going to come back in the same way it had been before, or in some other form, or if it was time to retire the idea.

Such a weight lifted from my shoulders.

I can’t tell you how relieved I was. What a no brainer! Now, I can write again.

Falling Into Grace

Setting the stage now is important to the rest of the story. Lately, I’ve been stressed. I feel it has to do with my work. I have taken on more responsibility and it is hard for me. I do know with time it will all work out. I have to say it is a whole lot better now than it was for me 6 months ago, so there is improvement. But, something just isn’t the same. That something might be my overall outlook on life. It could just be this miasma that I’m looking through all the time. Just sort of blah like. Worse than blah like.

Yesterday I went to Curves. It’s only a half an hour to go around the circuit as they call it. You work 30 seconds on a machine, leap off when the lady on the tape says to change stations, jog in place for 30 seconds and then get on another machine. Sometimes there are ladies there. Mostly, I just mind my own business.

I wasn’t all that excited about being there. I know I should be going 3 times a week, but for ages now I’ve only been going once a week. Because I don’t engage in the sociable thing with the other members I instead talk to my guides. Usually, it’s just sort of quick things back and forth. The conversations don’t really count as major channeled messages, but I treasure the time and they mean a lot to me.

After all these years I really haven’t gotten the prayer thing down. I’ve got the standard Our Father and Hail Mary from my childhood and those are somewhat comforting. I try to remember to pray for all the people I know who are sick. I sometimes pray for those in need I don’t even know personally or who haven’t contacted me who have visited my sites. Sort of a group collective prayer. I don’t know that any of the prayers work. Actually, I don’t know that my prayers would have any influence at all with a person’s condition. So, I send them out with a proviso that I learned from my Reiki training and that is if the person can use the help I will offer up what I can. I know my guide has told me that all prayers are heard, but there has never been any concrete proof for me. So, it is entirely an act of faith.

Another thing is that I keep trying to be with God. I try and try and yet at work I am angry and stressed and very often find myself saying bad words much more often than I used to do. One day this last week driving to work our conversation centered in on how many times I called people assholes on the one 10 minute drive to work. I don’t feel good. I don’t feel worthy. I just feel wretched a lot of the time.

The reason I am spilling my guts here is I don’t imagine that I am very much different from a lot of people especially with the added stresses everybody has with everything else that is going on in people’s lives. Things like the economy, terrorism, global warming…I could go on, but it’s too much like watching the news.

So, yesterday I was at Curves. I don’t remember all of the conversation I had. I remember somebody in Spirit who said something about doing it for them, like I could dedicate my workout to God. I thought of people like some of my relatives who I think live their lives pretty much doing everything for God. I know there are other people around who do things that way and who appear to be at peace with it. I toyed with the idea and then because it didn’t feel right to me to do that right then I just continued on with my workout.

Then the voice in my head took a different tack with me. It was something about instead of striving, pushing, straining, yearning to be in God’s grace to just sort of embrace it. I didn’t have to prove myself. I didn’t have to be good to be there. I could just go and be in God’s grace. I didn’t have to earn it. I could just collapse into that grace. I didn’t have to pray all day and be a good girl. I could still say bad words when I really felt I needed to and be stressed at work and I could just be in God’s grace. And, for a moment or two I was. The voice in my head said it was like falling into grace, like falling in love.

And, because it’s been awhile since I’ve channeled and because I’m such a ditz at actually remembering the things they say to me I think I’ll turn it over to my guides and folk in Spirit.

Good morning. Every one of you has a view of reality. It is through this belief that you experience life. There are big rules and there are smaller rules, but all of them lie in accordance with each other to produce a smooth base upon which to live your life. A lot of these rules come from the people who first influenced you as a child. It is through those experiences that a person might as an adult come to feel themselves to be entitled and to have everything good come their way almost effortlessly. It is what they expect. There are others who might feel that everything in life is a struggle and for them the difficulties experienced in life are many.

These are simplistic views, but perhaps you get the idea. For many people their view of a higher spirit or other spirit comes from the exposure they had as children. Many times this exposure is enough for them to last through their entire lifetime. Others might turn to other teachings and find greater comfort there. Others might shun the idea of a higher self or spirit entirely. There is no right way or wrong way here. You have the gift of choice in all that you do.

The holy spirit of God, the idea of your higher self, the peace you seek has and will always be there for you. Give up your expectations. These are the rules you use to structure your lives for a brief moment. Take a deeper than usual breath. Let it out slowly and pretend just for the briefest of moments that the peace, the loving serenity of God’s grace is there for you too.

Our blessings.

Boo

Have you ever noticed the things that can happen to your body when you are afraid? If you are suddenly afraid you might feel your bowels loosen, but that is an extreme case. Certainly being afraid can quicken your heart, can make you break out into a sweat, or if you are a lady going through the change can bring on a hot flash. You might be unable to catch your breath, you might even feel faint. If you have a long time fear that goes on day in and day out your health can be negatively affected. You might cope with the fear by self-medicating, by smoking tobacco, by drinking or even by taking drugs. This is what some of the things fear can do.

If fear is familiar to you it could be said that you view reality through fear. Have you ever met somebody who is constantly happy? Do you think something is wrong with them? If a person who is relatively content most of the time goes through a bad experience that person is probably going to be better able to process the experience quickly and resume a balance in their life faster than someone who is saddled with fear.

Here’s what happens to someone who holds a lot of fear who opens psychically. They are probably not going to have an easy time of it. Even in the best of circumstances opening psychically is going to nudge whatever fears you have. I can almost guarantee that your psychic awakening is going to be horrible if you have a lot of fear. If you are more like a 3 year old who does not know the meaning of the word fear you will have an easier time of it. I’m not saying the process is always going to be totally easy, because no matter how well balanced you are you will need to make some adjustments in how you look at life and your belief systems. Doing this without fear is easier than doing it with fear.

Actually, it really doesn’t matter whether you are afraid or not because this is your journey and you’ve got lessons to learn whichever way you are. I’m just saying I’ve noticed if you don’t hold fear the process is smoother. How can I say this? Because I was afraid.

My first fear was when my guide started talking to me. He said, “I am not a Nickelodeon that you can put money in and get answers to your questions.” Yikes. Then, it took me awhile to understand the deep and burning questions I wanted answered just were not important enough to need answers. Questions like, “When am I going to die? How am I going to die?” Notice I was afraid of dying. They’ve never answered those questions for me other than to say early on in the beginning (which I tend to doubt now anyway) that I would be hit with a Mac Truck.

And, here’s a funny one for you. I asked my guide once if he had ever seen an alien. He was silent for long enough that I figured I’d just asked a really dumb question and it was not deserving of an answer when he said, “Who do you think you’ve been talking to all this time?” If you think about it an extraterrestrial being is somebody who doesn’t have a body like we do on Earth. The way I understand it the guides and folk in spirit I talk to are energy. No bodies.

Anyway, you don’t have to be afraid of your fears. Just take a close look at them when they come up for you to look at. Know that you will proceed through a psychic awakening whether you are afraid or not. Be ready to make a commitment to do your own psychological and emotional healing as things come up and you will be fine.

Ghost Busting 101

My husband, DeeDude, is a fan of the paranormal television shows. He likes to watch, “Ghost Hunters”, with Jason Hawes and Grant Wilson who work during the day as Roto-Rooter plumbers and who investigate haunted houses at night. He also likes, “Paranormal State”. This is a group of college students who formed a club called the Penn State Paranormal Research Society. It’s led by Ryan and has a neat psychic who assists named Chip. I have come to enjoy the shows too and if you click on the links I think you can watch some of their episodes online.

When I became a psychic there wasn’t a school to go to and I didn’t have a whole lot of direction. I read books about psychics and I would occasionally go get readings from psychics. To this day on my birthday I usually spring for a reading for myself from somebody I’ve never met before just to see how they do it. I learn from other psychics.

So, too, could I learn from these television shows.

As a psychic, though, I really haven’t had a whole lot of experience with ghosts. I’m a channel and I talk to guides and spirit teachers and the spirit of folks who have passed on. Looking back over the psychic experiences I’ve had over the years I might have had contact with ghosts, but I’m not totally certain. From what is related on the shows it’s a possibility, but again, I’m not 100% certain.

When a friend of DeeDude’s asked me to come to her house to investigate the ghosts there I was thrilled.

Now, I’m a plain channel. I’m no nonsense. I’m not as flamboyant as I used to be years ago when I drank. Drinking for me really loosened me up and I could give over to the whole experience more than I do now. So, basically, I guess I’m sort of dull.

I also channel anytime during the day. It doesn’t have to wait for night. I realize that night is spookier than day. I also realize that all those ghost hunters and paranormal investigators have other things to do during the day. Don’t we all? I do too. I’m a psychic secretary. But, I figured that talking to a ghost would likely be very similar to talking to dead guys when I am channeling.

I thought about it all as the days led up to our meeting. I knew certain things about the situation. I knew that the house was built over a cemetery. The lady had reported to me that they heard a baby crying during the night and that baby was never their own. They also heard noises during the day.

The day arrives. That morning DeeDude was watching one of his shows. It was funny because I was in the study and I heard him yelling from the living room, “It’s not going to work. You need to get the Catholics.” I thought, “What the hell?” and went out to see what was going on. In this particular show they were doing an exorcism to rid the family of their ghost. It was a Protestant minister conducting the exorcism. I went back into the study and would periodically hear comments from DeeDude as the show continued. Then I hear him say, “I told you. I told you that you had to get the Catholics in.” So, I wandered back out to the living room to come in on the tail end of the exorcism being conducted by a Catholic priest and some assistants. A member of the family was talking to one of the assistants to ask about the roses they smelled. The lady smiled and said that was the sign of a successful exorcism; the smell of roses was a sign of God’s grace. I thought it was interesting. DeeDude was still wound up and hooting around about how only Catholics can do an exorcism right.

On to our meeting that afternoon. I went with a girlfriend because the drive was long and I am not accustomed to driving outside of my own neighborhood. We arrived at the house and spent some time in the front courtyard before we met with the lady who had invited me. The courtyard was absolutely enchanting. I felt very good there. I couldn’t tell that I was having any psychic hits. I was not channeling anybody. There just didn’t seem to be anybody there to talk to. I don’t say things like, “Hello? Is anybody there? Where are you?” I used to in my earlier days, but now as a channel if somebody is there to talk to they are there.

When we went inside the house she gave us a tour. You can walk in a circle around the house. I asked what was upstairs and she told me that they have never been up into the crawl space upstairs. She pointed out that under a piece of decking in the back yard were stairs going down into a root cellar. Nobody had been down there either and from the manner in which she told me this I understood that this was a spooky area and nobody wanted to go down there.

I understood the lady and her husband were somewhat anxious about the things going on in the house.

Her daughter was with a friend and some neighbor hood girls who were babysitting while we did our ghost-buster thing. Everybody appeared to be relaxed and having fun.

I still had not gotten any sort of uneasy feeling or psychic hits about anything.

Then, as we paused in the hallway she told me about the sounds of a baby crying they had heard over and over again during the night. As she told me the sounds had stopped in their frequency after they had gotten a baby monitor I had my first psychic hit. I told her immediately my feeling was the ghosts were interested and protecting her little girl. I said they were testing her to see that she would be a good mother and attend to the well being of her daughter and once she’d gotten the baby monitor things had calmed down a bit in that regard. That had a feel to me of the truth of a direct psychic hit.

The other thing that I’d been thinking about all week was that to my way of thinking ghosts would be as reasonable as anybody else. The business with the television showmanship of provoking a ghost or talking to them in a less than respectful fashion just didn’t seem right. Working on that premise I sent out my psychic feelers and came back with the following information: I felt there were a number of ghosts involved. It was their home as well as the people who lived in the house. My thought was there was no reason why everybody couldn’t live together in peace.


The first thing everybody always wants to know when they are channeling is who they are talking to. Names are sometimes difficult because when you get into a mode of trying too hard nothing works. I have always said to folks that they could just assign a name to their guides and go from there. If there is to be a change in name down the road then that’s fine too, but in the interim you’ve at least gotten over the bump of what your guide’s name is. I figured we could go that route with the ghosts in this cemetery. Right then the name Jack came to me. It really doesn’t matter if it’s real or not, Jack works okay.

So, I told her she could call their ghost spokesperson Jack.

I also tell people who want me to relay messages on to their loved ones who have passed on that they don’t need a psychic to do that. They can talk to their loved ones themselves. It doesn’t matter whether the things they want to say are out loud or just silent thoughts, even snippets of thoughts work. Your loved ones can hear you. I am totally convinced of this. You might not be able to hear them, but they can hear you anytime, anywhere, anyhow.

I figured this was probably the same thing with a ghost so I told her that she could talk reasonably to Jack and in return Jack ought to be reasonable back to her. I just figured it could be that way.

No fuss, no muss. Plain speaking. And the message was, “Thanks for looking out for us. We are interested in living here in peace with you. You were here first, but this is also our home. Please stop with the noises you are making at night to awaken us. Please stop with the crying baby alerts. We’re on top of it, though we do appreciate the time you are taking to make sure we are vigilant parents. Have a nice day.” Something along those lines would work.

What occurs to me now as I write this is that the ghosts might be interested in a little conversation once in awhile. She’s reported to me that the baby crying has continued. Maybe the ghosts just want to talk.

The last neat thing that happened was the day after our ghost-busting her husband smelled roses as they watched television.

Awakening Psychic Abilities

The way you make changes in any part of your life is to practice in your mind and believe that the thing is true.

For instance a person who practices their golf swing over and over in their mind, day dreaming about it, seeing it, feeling it, really getting into the imaginary day dream about their perfect golf swing is likely to be able to execute that same golf swing out on the golf course too. Practice your Spanish? Imagine cooking? Sew a seam? All of those things can take their place in your imaginary day dreaming.

So, how to apply that to awakening your psychic abilities? If you work on the premise that you are already psychic that helps. If you work on the premise that the “signs” are there already and you are just not noticing that works too.

So how are you supposed to notice the “signs” being given to you from the great beyond? Become more aware. How? Think sensory overload. Think radios, internet, television, people at work, telephone calls, clamor, clamor, clamor. Think of how much is going on around you at any given moment that you tune out in favor of concentrating on only the things you feel are worth noticing. You already know how to tune out clamor. Think now of things psychic that you would like to know about. Often those signs are quiet.

Okay, so perhaps you need to get quiet. You seek a quiet mind. Meditate.

What’s meditation going to do? It will help you to settle for a little bit. It will show you in the beginning just how active your mind is. It’s hard to meditate. Get a book about it. There are lots of ways to go about it. I would suggest short periods of meditation. Don’t think you are doing any good by saying you were able to sit for 4 hours mediating. That’s way too much. You would need a meditation coach for that sort of meditation because the first thing that is going to emerge is all the psychological crap you’ve buried for years. So, do it slowly at first and get a book to help you.

Another thing for you to do is start keeping a journal to record your impressions, your dreams, whatever floats your boat. This is a private journal. Meditating however long you do it has a way of getting you to cough up the phlegmy gagging mucous of your own psychological stuff. Getting it out onto paper helps for you to make a start at sorting it out.

All of this is helping you to notice things.

Take up a hobby. Perhaps something that you’ve always wanted to do and just never allowed yourself the time to indulge yourself. Get lost in it. I don’t know why this step works, but it does.

Read stories of other psychic’s lives to see what they experienced. It might happen this is something you can relate to.

Be prepared for the reasons you initially began this journey to change. For instance, you began with the idea that if you were psychic people would stop picking on you. You’d be able to frighten them into a position of awe. What’s going to happen is as you chip away at the barriers between your non-psychic self and your psychic self you’ll also chip away at the insecurity you feel. Once that’s gone your reason to be psychic will need to change because you will no longer care what people think of you.

Being psychic is not going to make you a more powerful or wealthy person. Being psychic is going to put you on the fast track for taking care of your own psychological and emotional growth and, I believe, will enrich your life.

The Stand - What I'm Reading

So, I’ve been sick with the flu for the last week and a half. I took 3 days off from work last week, was sick all weekend and tried to go to work this week. Monday I made it. Tuesday I was sick again. Wednesday I made it. Thursday I’m home sick again. I think tomorrow will be okay to be at work. If I have a coughing fit (which is what plagues me most these days) I can just go into the conference room and cough my brains out for awhile until it is over. Hopefully, by tomorrow I won’t be having them anymore.

Anyway, I’m on the mend. It’s been a tough flu. My temp got up to 103.8 when I visited the doctor last week. Not swine flu, but enough of a flu to lay me low. My diabetes numbers have all been real high. On a brighter note, I lost 6 pounds which hasn’t come back on yet, so maybe will stay off. Haven’t been this low since I quit smoking more than 8 years ago.

Anyway, early on in the course of this sickness with all the H1N1 news going on in the world I decided it would be appropriate to re-read, “The Stand” by Stephen King. This was the first King book I ever read and the one that got me hooked on him as a writer. I’ve read it at least 3 times. This version is paperback and was updated somewhat. Also, there are parts that were cut, but I’m still enjoying it.

So, I’m about half way through. Frannie has a bunch of excerpts from the diary she is keeping as she, Harold, Stu and Glen Bateman make their way first to Vermont and now on to Nebraska. They’d met up with 2 people, both dead now, so their group swelled briefly is now back to their smaller size of 4. To bring you up to speed, Glen is a sociologist who absolutely cannot help himself but to ponder the existence of mankind after the Superflu (Captain Trips) hit. The Army had developed this horrible flu. There was an accident and it got loose and in the space of a month’s time it killed most everybody in the world.

Harold is younger than Frannie and they knew each other before. Frannie is pregnant, though nobody knows about it and Harold pretends that he is in love with her, that he is the smartest in the group, that he should be leader and he is an absolute butt. Frannie feels obligated to take care of Harold because he is the younger brother of her now deceased best friend. Stu was almost at ground zero when he and his town were exposed to the people who had escaped the accidental release of the flu. The army moved in to quarantine everybody and became extremely interested in Stu Redmond when he did not develop the flu. He escaped their clutches. These are the survivors.

Anyway, I want to wrap this up and get to the point of what I wanted to say. Had to take 20 minutes out for a horrible coughing fit and I don’t think it’s quite done yet.

In Frannie’s diary she’d been recounting a discussion they’d been having about the dreams they all seemed to be sharing, especially of the guy they’d started to refer to as, “The Dark Man”. Purely evil and out to stalk all of them. On the other hand was Mother Abigail who is 108 years old living in Nebraska who represented what was good in the world. Some were being drawn to The Walking Dude and others drawn to Mother Abigail. But, the discussion they were having was how odd it was that they were all having the same sort of dreams. Glen, the sociologist said, “Whenever something overtly paranormal occurs the only explanation that really fits well and holds its interior logic is the theological one. That’s why psychics and religion have always gone hand in hand, right up to your modern-day faith-healers.”

Now, remember, I’m a psychic channel. That’s key to what’s really funny here. Because just as I read that part one of the guides said to me, “Well, who are you going to talk to in the dead of night?” Maybe it’s just me, but I thought it was funny.