Where The Psychic Vents

I've been playing around with my other blog, Where The Psychic Vents. Haven't actually posted much in the last week or so to any of my blogs. Busy times. Back hurts too. Blame the dentist for that one. Next time, laughing gas for me for sure.

On Edge?

If you find yourself on edge and cranky a lot of the time consider that maybe there’s something, one small thing you might do in making a mind/heart adjustment for yourself that will magically alter the way you perceive the world around you.

Consider that the thing that needs attention for your world to be bright and sunny, for you to be cheerful again, is buried deep in your heart and in your memories. This thing will have happened to you when you were younger, but it very well could be something that is left over from previous lifetimes as well. This is the core work to be done. You might address it occasionally as you age, as you move through your life. You might address a corner of this stone, examine one facet of this multi-faceted gem that sits at the core of you and find that things ease up for you for a time. But, somehow this thing always seem to come back to haunt you.

It might be that you feel a mild depression settle upon you. It might be that you hurt your foot again. How does this happen? Why does it always happen before a big meeting that you manage to hurt your foot? It’s weird.

These could be the outward manifestations of this multi-faceted stone that sits at the heart of you. This problem if you will, or a life lesson, a multi-lifed lesson that waits patiently for you to chip away at.

Knowing the symptoms are there and the issues still awaiting your pleasure why not have the courage to look at them? It doesn’t have to be an in-depth look. It doesn’t have to be a prolonged look. What counts here is the acknowledgement that it is there and the promise that you will look into the matter.

That’s all.

There are all sorts of ways for the how of it, for the ways to go about healing the hurts inside of you. But, the first step, the most important steps of all are to acknowledge that it exists and to make the promise to the universe, to your higher self, that you will look into the matter.

It’s like a dose of WD-40.

Do it now or do it next lifetime. The choice is yours.

Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving everyone. Whether you do it up big or scale it down small take a moment to think of all the people in your life you are thankful for.

A Nice Day Off

I'm flailing around this morning trying to come up with 3 articles for next month's newsletter at Talking to Spirit. And, I'm not getting very far, so I figured I'd pop in here for a couple of minutes to yak.

I've got the day off. Heaven. Don't really have any super-duper plans of things to do, though we might visit the Oakland Museum. I've never been there, DeeDude is a member and has 3 guest passes, so that might be interesting. Or, it occurred to me that maybe I could talk him into going to San Jose to the Winchester Mystery House. All the years we've been here I haven't been there either. Or, we'd sort of made tentative plans to visit a new Indian restaurant near where I work and at the same time visiting the new Trader Joes that's just opened up. So, it's all up in the air....in the meantime I'm diving back into the article writing with the hopes that I can come up with something a little interesting.

Oh sit and shit. What? Sit and shit. As opposed to standing on the toilet seat? Am I channeling? I don't know are you? Okay, what's wrong? Why does anything have to be wrong? When I start saying things like that I know something is wrong. Things like what? You know: sit and shit. Nobody ever says anything like that. Well, somebody did and that somebody is you. What am I talking to myself now? You were in the article you were writing. Oh, right. It wasn't coming off very well. Maybe I should take a break. Maybe you should regroup. How is taking a break any different from regrouping? Taking a break is taking a break. It's doing something else. It's relaxing. It's thinking about something else. Regrouping is thinking about what you want to be doing in a different manner. Oh. Well, that sounds logical.

Personally, I think I need to stand up and stretch. Later.

Where The Guides Help with Some Psychological Work

I could say there’s just no easy way to get rid of stress in your life. Sometimes it seems that way to me. But, this morning as I sit here thinking about the flare up of digestive woes (sounds so much better than flaming diarrhea) I had over the weekend in response, I think, to being worried that our car, The Green Machine, would not pass the smog test I get the feeling it’s time to do more than celebrate the one event and wait in trepidation for the next one.

So, this has happened before. I’ve got a few more stress-filled events coming up in my life over the next few months. I either need to find a way to get past them easily or figure out a way not to get so stressed about them. I think the later course of action would be the smarter road to follow.

I know it is not bad luck that these things loom in my life. Everybody is in the same boat. Do you see your neighbor falling to pieces over any little thing? My husband has said I worry too much. He’s been saying that for years. Maybe now is the time I can start looking at why I’ve got this Chicken Little view of life.

Guides?

Yes.

Could you help me with this?

No.

Why not?

The sky is actually falling.

Ha. Ha. This is something I’m supposed to do on my own right?

Well, it would be a lesson well learned. How does anything sit better than something you figure out for yourself?

Well, you’ve got a point about that.

We might pose another question for you and that would be more for the benefit of others reading this particular missive and that is: Do you in any way feel betrayed by our not answering your question?

No.

Why not?

I know there are times when I just really do need to work stuff out for myself. There are lots of things you don’t tell me.

Like what?

Like when I’m going to die.

Well, yes. Another?

Will I ever be rich?

Another?

Will I ever be skinny again? And, don’t say another. I’m getting tired of this.

Why?

Shit. Now, look what you did. I’m having a hot flash.

That, Dear, is merely a taste of things to come. Bwwwaaahhhhhhaaahahha.

Very funny. People are probably wondering that you can make noises like that.

Like what?

Like that Bwwwaaahahahhaa sound. It’s an evil sounding laugh is what it is.

It was Guide humor, Dear. That is all. There was a pointed acknowledgement that there is a Hell and you could very well end up there after all.

Well, you already told me there is only a Hell if you believe in Hell. Mostly, there is only Heaven.

Well, Hell for awhile. A way-station on the way to bliss.

Here’s what you can do. Close your eyes. Sink as you do into the quiet place. This will only take 3 mintues. If that. Sink, Dear. You are safe. You will have plenty of time to finish getting ready for work. This is your time to do some very valuable work toward lessening the effects of stress and what you feel are stress-filled situations in your life.

Are we doing this so others can see?

For a moment.

Sink, Dear. You are the guinea pig.

Thanks.

Sink.

It is not that hard to move back to a child hood moment. A place where you were worried about something.

I just want to cry.

Yes, well, that’s what you wanted to do then. That was the only thing you could do then.

Go back.

What do you see?

I don’t understand what they want. I just don’t understand. I will do what they want if they will just tell me. If they are going to be happy with me when I do what they want I will do what they want. There is no other way to do it. I can only do what they want. But, I get mad sometimes because I just don’t understand what they want me to do. If I am quiet maybe they will see what the others are doing. Maybe they won’t even notice me. Maybe I can be so still and quiet that they will think I’m not even here. But, I’m big. I’m bigger than the rest of them. I can’t do this and I can’t do that and yet they get angry at me if I go do something else. I can’t win here. This is a no-win situation. This is like being in jail. This is horrible. I am very sad about it. I wish I was dead. I just wish I was dead.

You have no power in this?

No. But, I can be mean.

You can be mean to your parents?

Oh, no. I love my mommy and daddy. I can be mean to them.

Who?

My brothers and my sister. It’s not good, but it’s the best I can do. I just wish sometimes I would get so sick they would be sorry they were ever mad at me.

Hey, I don’t see this going anywhere.

You’ve in the thick of it, Dear. Hold with us just a little while longer. There are some insightful things you’re relating here.

Well, it sounds like I was a very mean and very bad little girl.

Yes, it does sound like that. It is how you look at yourself. And, you became a mean and very bad woman as an adult.

No, I don’t think so. I think I’m just full of stress.

Okay…I’m going back under. This is weird typing it as it is happening to me.

Keep going.

Okay, so I was powerless there. I really could not do anything about the situation, but as a child I figured out a way to cope somehow and that was to be mean to my brothers and sisters.

Dear, were you really mean or were you put into a position of responsibility where you needed to be the big sister and help your mother take care of them? You were the easier solution at times. You were always there. You wanted to please.

I want to throw up.

Well, you don’t do that anymore do you? You are getting close to something here. Keep going.

Oh, crap. All I needed to do was to say, “No!” That’s it? That’s it?

For you, yes. Picture yourself again as that little girl who only wanted to die and picture her standing in front of her parents. Both of them. Stand her on a chair so that she can look them in the eye and let her say, “No!”

Hey, thanks for your help. I feel better.

And, you’ve also demonstrated to anyone who needs to do the same work what it can be like and how relatively simple it is to take care of emotional and psychological wounds. Our blessings.

Writing Progress - Big Zero

In an ideal world, a world of concentrated attention to NaNoWriMo.org activities I would be focused upon the job of writing a novel.

In the real world:

My back hurts now because I tensed up in the dentist’s chair yesterday while I was getting my teeth cleaned. It was like I’d passed on into an advanced stage of rigor mortis. They’re so blamed sensitive I was jerking, and twitching, and gagging. It was horrible. The dentist apologized to me afterward. I said, “Oh, that’s okay. It happens every time. At least I wasn’t screaming.” He looked at me funny. I guess it’s a good thing I don’t drink anymore. The comments that used to come out of my mouth in those days must have been fabulous.

The further unsettling news is that I’ve got to get 3 crowns. To maximize dental benefits I’m getting 2 done next month and the third done the following month. Oh, joy.

The more unsettling news is that my car is due to be smogged at a test only station. If it doesn’t pass I can either have it repaired (which could be really big bucks) or I can sell it to the State of California. I’ll have to investigate that avenue.

I didn’t need all these crappy things on my mind as I’m trying to craft a novel. No wonder I got a boil on my rear end last year.

NaNoWriMo - Day 3

Well, I’m writing. That’s about all I can say. Progress on an actual novel? Well, no. Not yet. It’s like eating the crusts off of your sandwich completely until you get to go forward into the center where the truly good stuff resides. Word count for NaNoWriMo: 6,552 I wish I could find a cute widget.

Psychic Readings

Just a quick observation. What discernible difference is there in the information you would get between a psychic who charges a lot, a psychic who doesn’t charge a lot and a psychic who doesn’t charge at all?

To my way of thinking there is no difference. They charge or don’t charge for their own reasons. Maybe they are into a mode of service and have decided that money isn’t what is important to them at that point in time. Maybe they want to sift out the riff raff, folks who aren’t going to take their advice seriously by charging. Maybe they would prefer to concentrate all their efforts towards psychic endeavors rather than flipping hamburgers, or answering phones and typing all day.

I think it’s the same as choosing a hairdresser. The hairdresser knows their stuff. They’re not going to go get a license to cut hair without knowing how. But, it is the individual customer who will determine if they will return to the hairdresser another time. It was either a good cut or a not so good cut. I’ve had both. Do you see me pissing and moaning? No. I just find a different hairdresser or do it myself if it gets long enough.

Anyway, if you’re going to go to a psychic it is you who is going to determine whether you had a good reading or not. There are some no-brainer basic rules to follow like if they offer to lift a curse from you and your family you are supposed to run in the opposite direction and not pay for that. Or, if they feel it is really important for you to return to them and soon for a more in-depth reading at more cost to you that too, isn’t such a good thing. But, other than that the psychic is able to tap into guidance for you. It may be something as simple as saying, “Slow down a little” or, “Pay attention to the irritating things going on in your life.” The biggest thing is that if the information you get from a psychic rings true for you, then go with it. If it doesn't ring true then say thank you and don't gripe about paying for the time they took to do the reading for you.

I, who am a psychic, go out occasionally and get my own readings done by other people. One thing about reading for yourself is you run into what I call, “wishful channeling”. You want so much for it to be true that you skew the channeling in your direction. If you’re aware of it you take that factor into consideration and aren’t so disappointed if something doesn’t come about. I suppose every psychic runs into it sooner or later. The easiest way to handle it is to announce to all and sundry that you can’t read for yourself and then don’t tell them about the times you do. Hell, I read for myself all the time. I love it. It’s why I’m on 24/7 with Spirit.

Actually, it’s not really reading for myself that I do, it’s more just hanging out with Folk in Spirit that I like. Like I was at Curves this morning for my workout. About half way through I got somebody from Spirit encouraging me. Something about Curves for Christ. I said, “Are you kidding?” while I was huffing and puffing and they shook my head for me. Funny. And, I thought about the other ladies in the room with me, all of us sweating and puffing and how I’m having this conversation with somebody in Spirit and they don’t even know. I wondered what they were thinking about. I even went so far yesterday to imagine what it would be like if one of them ever asked me what I do and I tell them I’m a psychic rather than tell them I’m a secretary. It’s just a small fantasy I have. Sort of like I'm coming clean.

Well, I only do it here on the internet. Who do I know who reads my stuff here? Nobody, really.

But, having a reading done by somebody else gives you another point of view. It also shows you another psychic’s style. We’re all individual and not too many, I think, went to school to do this. I didn’t. I consider it almost continuing education for myself just to see how other people do the psychic reading thing.

You can take a look at some of the readings I've done for people. These are the ones I did for free and I figure the energy exchanged is my right to put it on the internet with names and personal information removed or changed. Right now, especially this month as I'm mired in the NaNoWriMo.org November writing project, I'm not going to be doing any readings. Once December rolls around maybe I will again. What I would like to do, though, is get myself to a point where I can do them to supplement my retirement. To do that I'll need to get back into the swing of things this next year.

And, She's Off....Writing for NaNoWriMo.org

I don’t anticipate a whole lot of action in my blogs this month. I’m participating in the NaNoWriMo.org November Novel Writing Contest. I’ve written two days and devised a clever, yet way cool spreadsheet to track how I’m doing. Different than the table I used last year which had a count of each chapter. This one takes into account the fact that I might dip into an already written part and add to it. How it will work is at the end of a days writing I cover over the entire text…ctrl A ought to do it and get a word count. The word count is placed into the table.

What I think is neat is that the equations are set up to subtract all that has been produced before to come up with just what was done that day. That way I can begin in the middle of a sentence, which is a good thing. Not having a completed thought when you leave a piece of writing enables you more easily to pick up on your train of thought when you return to it. At least that's what they've told me. Then I also don't have to do awkward things like color coding anything or mark it in any way so I know just exactly where that piece of writing happened. I also incorporated an IF statement so that the next day’s stuff doesn’t return a weird number. I also have a number for where I should be. That way I can easily see if I’m still on target. Roughly, I want to do 3 pages a day. More if I can handle it.

Anyway, if I can get it up here you can see what I did. The places to input numbers are in the green column. That would be the total written in its entirety. Ctrl A to select and word count to see how many words. Then, you can widen the comments column. It wouldn't fit in the blog unless I squeezed it up. If it helps somebody, good. I think it will help me to stay on target.

What I find interesting is that you, Dear Reader, can input numbers into this spreadsheet to see how it works. Refreshing the page returns it to how I uploaded it. You can even save it for yourself if you want.